So.. we’ve all been here haven’t we? On the brink of insanity because of this unbearable allergy. Drowning ourselves in Benadryal, Cetirizine, among others, with little to no results. I have the additional fortune of also having Exercise Induced Anaphylaxis, which needless to say, leaves me basically house ridden spiraling into a depression..
I’m about to be 21, and I can’t get a job, and even if I can, It doesn’t last because well, you get sent home so many times for your face swelling up for no reason. I hate the burden that I place on everyone around me, I can’t do anything.. I went to the grocery store and broke out in hives and within five minute, sure enough, my lips and eyes were swollen and I was in the bathroom standing under a faucet of ice cold water for thirty minutes, after taking way too much Benadryl to calm it down..
You go to doctors, they go “leaky gut” this, “bad diet” that.. They don’t know.. You go to an allergist, they just throw a million different pills at you and send you on your way. It seems like there is no end, don’t get me started on that “7 year lifespan” BS, I’ve had this since I was 13, and it seems like the longer I’ve had this, the worse it’s got.
I remember two years ago, I was able to walk miles, while only suffering a mild itch, I held down a job, and now, I can barely leave the house, forget exercise or anything to physically demanding, hell even if I get emotional (Angry, stressed, HAPPY) Boom, trip to the ER.
I wanna do so much more in my life.. But I can’t. Hell it’s even in my dreams now, I run in my dreams? I get the itch, It’s unbearable.
Like the title says, I’m breaking down, physically and mentally..