I’m 19 years old, turning 20 in a couple of months, and I’ve been suffering with Urticaria for near enough a couple of years now. I’ve seen a couple of doctors and consultants, and apparently I suffer from Chronic Urticaria Pigmentosa, which is induced by stress, anxiety, exercise, water and temperature.
I’m currently at University in my second year here in the UK, and I’m currently on two Cetirizine Hydrochloride 10mg tablets a day, plus one Rupafin 10mg tablet a day which I’ve only recently started. I used to take a Fexofenadine 180mg a day instead, but they weren’t doing anything.
Like a lot of people on this site, my Urticaria is triggered very easily and will happen numerous times a day. The pain I experience is quite severe, to the point where I sometimes uncontrollably spasm out until I calm down. I used to play a lot of sports and drummed in a band. However, I’ve given most of this up, as I can’t do them as I find my pain too uncomfortable to do any of them any more.
My question relates to the problem I think I’ve now got in my head. I think I might be starting to suffer from depression and severe anxiety. My Urticaria has pushed me to the point where I resist leaving my house unless completely necessary, which in my case is for lectures and tutorials at University, and I’ll still have a couple of attacks whilst doing these.
Most days I don’t bother getting dressed, and I’ve lost nearly all motivation for any of the old things I used to do. I find it so uncomfortable with the pain of my Urticaria to speak to new people and even friends who I’m not that close with, I’ve inadvertently slowly stopped speaking to them. I’m that desperate to stop experiencing this pain.
I’ve had a couple of experienced where I’ve just broken down on my own and cried for hours, and I can’t seem to shake any of this off or ‘snap out of it’.
Coupled with all this is a massive feeling of guilt, as I’m sure there are people out there with Urticaria and other diseases way worse than mine, but I really just can’t help feel the way I do. I don’t wait to self diagnose myself with depression or anything, but at the same time I feel too scared to discuss it with anyone in case they slam me down and tell me this is all in my head, like I was told when I first started noting signs of my Urticaria.
This is mainly the reason I haven’t mentioned this to anyone until now: I didn’t want to seem melodramatic or patronising or insult anyone, but I really just don’t know where to draw the line.
Any feedback would be gratefully appreciated, and I wish you all the best in your battle against this horrible illness.
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