I have only had cholinergic urticaria for a year, and it drives me insane to know that there are people out there who’ve had it for 9 years – it’s crazy. It’s simply barbaric what we have to go through.
I’ve woken up at 4 AM unpleasantly with my belly, back, thighs, and legs burning and itching. And being angry doesn’t help either; it just triggers it more. But I can’t help but build up anger when I think about how I can’t do things like everyone else.
I can’t be in track anymore, or just sports in general. I can’t go out, regardless if it isn’t even that dark. I can’t enjoy a nice hot relaxing shower like I used to, and I can’t even get mad about it because it just makes it worse and it being worse just makes me more mad (vice versa). Then it drives me absolutely insane to think about all the other people out there like me who wish they could do the same.
I’m just a 14-year-old girl, I just wish to go back to only having to wear sunscreen making the sun was the least of my problems. Living in Texas doesn’t help. Sorry this is a random rant.