Hello once again, I had previously submitted a few threads before here, updating my health status, sharing my story, asking related questions and so on, but right now I am literally walking through hell and I had never felt worse. This time this thread is going to be much longer than my threads before, so thank you for your patience for reading this.
I am 17 years old, finishing school, my exams are coming up, I get nervous easily and I had some tough times before, but now, since the spring has started and it’s warm outside, usually around +8 C and classrooms in the school get heated by the sun through the windows and opening a window doesn’t cool you down like it did in the winter, it just sucks out the hotter air out instead of blowing in, gladly today and yesterday were a bit colder, around +2 C, so I am happy as I am writing now that I can step outside or open a window any time to cool myself fully, but warm weathers are coming back soon again, so I’m afraid.
I always had something wrong with my body temperature, because for example in the winter, when everyone is wearing several layers of clothes and are still cold, I always wear a short-sleeved shirt and autumn-type thin jacket, so even in school, when I open up all the windows to make a wind inside and cool myself down everyone is shouting that they’re too cold so I must close them and go out and cool myself in the corridor or something.
Anyways, I always liked it, that I’m always warm and don’t feel cold as much, but now, living with CU, this just makes it worse I believe. (I first came across CU this year, in the end of autumn and starting of winter, I take Zyrtec and Kestine anti-histamines). I gave up drinking for winter, I am not using drugs anymore, so it doesn’t get worse, but.
Yesterday, I, with a friend, together we drank a 0,7l bottle, after the first few shots when I got warm I got an attack, itching was as worse as usually, but the bumps on my arm were something that I had never seen before. When I first got UC, my bumps would appear on my upper chest, and on my inner arms, usually in the middle, in the arm bend. After a few months it moved up all the way to inner wrist and now I get red bumps on my inner wrists and a bit on my inner bicep, going to the shoulders.
But yesterday, when I got an outbreak after drinking, I mean my whole arms were covered in the red dots, EVEN on the outer side, where I had never had them before, after 5 minutes of running outside I cooled down and got fine again, it didn’t occur again. Let’s hop into today, today in school, after yesterday’s drinking, I got nervous and had a heat hive (I didn’t get heat hives before, I mean I did, but very very rarely, maybe the most in the beginning, but not now, last time I had a heat hive was probably like a good few months ago,
I only get the terrible itching), so today after getting the hive, itching started and I had to walk out of the school, and thankfully it was cool outside so it disappeared quickly. Anyways, my point is that I do not recommend using alcohol while having UC, even though I don’t know for sure if alcohol caused it, but still.
What worries me the most is that in the winter or autumn it was cold outside, and it was my best relief, I could just open a window or run outside after having an attack and get better, but now, with spring weather coming up, the only thing that made it better for me is slowly fading away and I will not be able to cool myself down outside, that is what scares me so much. Even though my UC started during early winter, I still hope that it is seasonal and will go away soon, but while it is not going away, I am literally so close to breaking down in my life, that you can not imagine.
Focusing on more important things, I got exams very soon, one of them is coming up the next Wednesday, and I know I will get nervous and get the itching, so I am planning to go to a sauna a few times, one on the Sunday evening and one on Tuesday evening, just before the exam, I hope it will make it better.
I know, you will probably tell me something like “oh you got to start sweating now, etc.”, well, I can’t start running in the evenings to start getting used to sweating and break through, because one of my legs is screwed after a motorcycle crash, I can’t just go to a sauna every day to do a sweat therapy, because I don’t have a sauna and the closest one is in another city, which is not so close from me and I got to take a bus to it, and currently I am not in the financial status to buy a portable one from amazon.
Also, I wouldn’t break out so much if I wasn’t scared so easily of everything, everything makes me nervous, resulting in a breakdown, and I am trying to control my mind to stop that, but I just suck too much to achieve it…
Anyways, thank you, if you’ve read it all, I am going through a hardest time of my life right now probably, and I am just on the edge of breaking down mentally, but I still am going. I still have a dream that one day, soon, I will just wake up one morning without CU, if it is a seasonal one, but only time will show this.
Thank you for your time!