I can’t stand this anymore! Why am I even still attending classes in college!? Why should I get a career? It’s over!
My life was over the minute cholinergic urticaria showed up! I can’t do anything! I can’t leave my apartment, I can’t exercise.. I can’t even make friends because I get nervous when I meet new people!
I can deal with getting a little nervous, but I can’t deal with cholinergic urticaria. Every day is Hell. The only reason I am still in college is because I am terrified of my father who wants me to get a degree and get a job. He keeps telling me “You’re a man you can handle it”.
Sometimes I wish he feels how I feel so he stops forcing me to stay in college. I want to kill myself. I swear I would have done it if it wasn’t a sin in my religion. I’ve tried a lot of pills, body lotion, creams, weight loss, BUT NOTHING WORKS!! It just keeps getting worse. I need help.