I’m at a breaking point. I have been dealing with cholinergic urticaria for a year. I am only 16, and I don’t know how much longer I can deal with this condition. My life before I started experiencing these hives was so much easier.
I want to go back to that point in my life so badly. I used to be able to dance for hours and not feel any discomfort, I was so active, and suddenly I began to itch. Now I can’t stand in my bathroom for 10 minutes without feeling the itchiness and pain. I feel like giving up, and I just wish I was dead at this point.
I hate cholinergic urticaria. I want to go back to my carefree lifestyle. I know I’m complaining, but I am so frustrated right now. I used to be able to eat whatever I wanted, I can’t anymore. I am going to try sweat therapy, and diet.
I’ve read posts on here for months now, and I stopped using deodorant with Aluminum, but it hasn’t helped. I hate this disease, it looks so ugly, and it’s caused me so much stress. I am constantly anxious at school, worried I’ll break out, and someone might see it and make fun of me. It’s spread from my stomach to my chest to my arms to my legs to my neck to my face to my back. It’s everywhere.
I am planning on seeing a dermatologist, and getting a patch test. I feel like I shouldn’t be allowed to live anymore, is this God’s way of punishing me? I’ve never done wrong, so why is it me? These thoughts constantly run through my mind. I don’t understand how anyone can live with this. I need help. I need a way to stop this, I don’t know how much longer I can go on. I feel so bad about myself.
My cholinergic urticaria has never been this bad. I will start a diet soon. It’s my last choice. I am so miserable and sad. I feel like the only teenager going through this in the world. How can I make this go away, will it ever go away? How can I go back to normal?